I had wanted to start off the new year in a better emotional state, but since we are starting this year with the same unemployment stress and financial difficulties as last year (and the year before that and the year before that...see the trend? note the sarcasm?), I grabbed the bull by the horns, took control and made the only change that was there for the taking. Yes, folks, I changed the template on my blog. Now I know what you are thinking. Radical, right? How could I possibly have the guts to change the lovely, striped rosy background...my controlling personality love the rigidity of those stripes... to this orange hued, swirly mass of squiggles. Well, the decision did not come easily for me. No, I ruminated and pondered the idea for a whole three minutes, conferring with my daughter about this massive change in my life. I must have perused at least ten different templates contemplating deep questions such as do I really want birds flying across the page or will the raindrops on the window motif be overly depressing for my readers? Heavy stuff, this blog design. Is making this change reflective of bigger changes that I would love to see happen during 2015? Heck, yeah!
While I might be making fun of my decision to change my background this afternoon, the choice to do so stems from a feeling of inertia I am experiencing in other aspects of my life. Last year was filled with some nice highs, but the lows we experienced were significant and threw us back into the unemployed masses with all the stress and worries we used to have, compounded by our needing to 'buck up' and deal with the issue all over again. So while other people might be looking at 2015 as a blank slate, I am still seeing the same old writing on the wall (or blog) that I saw last year and the previous year, etc. and seemingly ad infinitum for us (at the very least, it feels that way).
So, here we go again, another year, more challenges and, hopefully, more highs than lows. If nothing else, my blog got a face lift and maybe that bright and cheery citrus color will equate to a brighter and more cheery tone to my writing with happier news to share. It should be noted that I did not choose the lemon motif for the blog design as I have already had more than enough of those in my life. This year, I would like to take my life off repeat and add a little swirly craziness to it for a welcome change.