The last two weeks have not been peachy so I suppose it is not unreasonable for me to be in a bad (understatement!) mood today, but my new 'job' has thrown me over the edge. I am aggravated, frustrated and emotionally drained from this job and I have not even started it yet. So, dear readers, I give you the top three reasons why if my husband's lack of a job does not land me in an asylum, trying to start my own job definitely will. Here they are (or no particular order)...
1. The manual--this is the first job I have ever held that is exclusively online, which is exactly what I wanted, however, what I did not bargain for was the fact that I needed to learn how to navigate the system totally on my own, armed only with their 25 page 'how to get started' manual. I am pretty computer savvy and heaven knows I am not afraid of words on a page but, holy heck, grab my bottle of Excedrin, this is a labor intensive endeavor. Adding insult to injury, there are more rules to which the tutors need to adhere than Sr. Mary Richards had about our uniforms in high school...and she was in-tense! I am afraid that if I ever do this get this program up and running, I will be incarcerated for answering a student's question directly, rather than referring the student 'to the appropriate reference material.'
2. The email system--I love email. I think the ability to communicate without bothering a person on the phone is a blessing. That said, the system only works if the recipient has access, time or the desire to answer in a timely manner, otherwise, waiting for a response is torture. Adding insult to injury, because this is a completely computer run endeavor, there is no phone number to call for immediate gratification. Might sound weird, but it is true.
3. The lack of viable practice material--Sure it is great to have a sample whiteboard (my means of communicating with my students) with lots of fun buttons and colors on it but, with no way to run through a few sample lessons, how am I supposed to know what to do? Might be nice to be able to get a trial run in before I go live (especially with all the rules and regulations for my responses).
Am I really just that old that this approach to starting a job seems so frustrating and upsetting? Trust me, the last thing I want or need is to have my hand held, but I feel as though I am totally flying blind and it is disconcerting. I would love to share my concerns with the project manager and perhaps discuss options on how I can get started, but apparently he does not share my love of email nor he does not want to deal with me today. Honestly, I don't want to deal with me today either. I read an inspirational quote this morning that said 'always choose to be postive' and I will do just that. I am positive that this is not working for me today. I am so freaking done!